Saturday, May 1, 2010

not so much

So I've been thinking a lot lately, in my experience this is something that comes naturally with major life changes...
The weird part, or weird for me anyway is that I have no desire to talk about what I've been thinking about. I especially have no desire to talk about work, at all!
I just walked away from my career of 13 years, a very hard move, a very disappointing leaving experience. Everyone wants to know about it, but I don't want to tell, I don't want to vent, or share or commiserate. I just want to know it's over.
I'm starting a new job, something exciting and totally different. But, I don't want to theorize, ask for more info than I've been given, or even enthuse (is that a word? you know what I mean right...) about the job.
I'm excited to go to work on Monday and start a new job but I'm sort of hoping this bizarre indifference means this job will not be my life like my job always has been. I'm counting on this as a sign that I'm ready to be defined by something other than my work.
I think I may also be ready to be defined by something other than my child. Being E's mama is the best thing I've ever been but I think I may need something more. This will definitely take some figuring but I'm ready.
So far I'm thinking... sewing, cookie and bread baking, I may cook a few dinners, I think I may want to run again (sometimes), hiking, and whatever else comes my way!
This list is definitely to be continued.


  1. running? no way! there have got to be other options.


    i'm so glad for you, and for this change. i think it's going to be great. and you don't have to be any one thing. you can be anything!

  2. This was a great teaser! Let me know if you'd like some great food/recipe links.